Sweet Home Sweet

Yes, thats where I am. Finally! Last week, my brother Jeb and I took off on a 1,500 mile venture towards home. We made it in good time and 2 days later I left for a week to be "camp nurse" at Good News Camp. Now, I am resting up and enjoying being home.
This last week in my Bible reading I read about God's call on Abram's life. I thought long and hard about the following verse.
Genesis 12:2
"And I will make of thee a great nation,
and I will bless thee, and make thy name

great and thou shalt be a blessing...
"
The Lord impressed on my heart this week at camp, that the greatest blessing is to be a blessing. And the biggest way to be a blessing is by sharing--in word and deed-- the gospel of Jesus Christ. And no matter how the people around me define success-- my aim should be to honor my Father by serving others for the sake of the Gospel. There is no greater call. And there is no greater blessing. The challenge comes when we are faced with the temptation to become self-righteous in our service. We must pray that our motives are to bless people- not to impress them. And yes, I struggle with this, but I think the more unaware we are of the impact we have on people, the easier it is for God to use us. Be willing to remain the peon.

I look forward to catching up with so many peeps from here at home and around the area -- but dear friends who I've left many miles behind me, please do stay in touch!!
Love,
Kaylene

Trust

Psalm 18:30 "As for God, His way is perfect..."
"Patience is more than endurance. A saint's life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, and He stretches and strains, and every now and again the saint says - "I cannot stand any more." God does not heed, He goes on stretching till His purpose is in sight, then He lets fly. Trust yourself in God's hands." - Oswald Chambers

Edit:: I posted the wrong rendition of this song before. This one's much better.

Love

Sometimes love is the more difficult way,
but in the end... it is the more excellent way.

Lord, give me a love that is not circumstantial.
Thank
You for Your unconditional love towards me.

Issues With Blogging

Blogging would be higher on my priority list if it wasn't for these.

  • Stalkerish people scare me. and I'm one of them. ;)
  • So much to say, too little time. Blogging can easily eat time.
  • Its hard for me to write a thought exactly the way I thought it.
  • Avid bloggers start to think in "posts" instead of "thoughts". This is annoying.
  • If you make a blanket statement it can be hard to explain to someone who doesn't know you.
  • Sometimes fingers on the keyboard misinterpret desire to be an encouragement into "my
  • life is perfect and I'm happy all the time"
  • No matter how sincere the writing, you will never know the real me without meeting me in
  • person, hearing me laugh, and watching me get excited over something.

Maybe sometime I'll post on why I ever do blog. ;)

We Love Him, Because He First loved Us

To think that Christ set aside His greatness to come to earth to die is beyond incredible. To know He did it because He loved me? I can't even begin to comprehend. In fact, He set aside His greatness in order to show us His love.

Below is a list of links for a video called "How Great is Our God" by Louie Giglio. You will not regret time spent watching. Can't express the impact they had on my attitude towards God. Not to mention my attitude towards myself. Nothing have I done, nothing can I do--to deserve such great love.

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

the perfectionism of a perfectionist suffering from perfectionist-isim

Is it possible, I mean, could it be that my ardent dislike for perfectionism is in fact related to the fact that I am a perfectionist? I think I've recently discovered I have a streak of the ugly, horribly distracting, consistently annoying trait of perfectionist-isism. Who, me?

In many ways, it does me favors. I generally arrive places on time and I care very much whether or not I get a good grade. In other ways its a real detriment.

Seriously. Perfectionism annoys me when I see it in other people. Its not the job that they did well because of their perfectionism that annoys me, but its the attitude that seems to go along with it. Its either "I'm more concerned about the project at hand than I am you." or "Oh, hi best friend, how long have you been standing there? I'm just working on this project and I didn't see you come in." Its either intentional or non-intentional, but both seem to have the same effect.

So what would you say to someone who has deceived herself for 19 years concerning such an important character deficiency? It may actually be possible though, that I'm just now becoming a perfectionist. How can I nip this in the bud? Are their support groups? Rehabilitation programs?

"Someday I want to be perfect, so I've got to do something about those flaws in my character. You know, like perfectionism." - Kaylene ;)

I am, in reality, finding that there is a crucial balance between conscientiousness and having "freedom" (living life without a care in the world). Jesus takes the burden out of trying, but trying is not a sin. Trying, in order to earn salvation or man's approval, is sin, but trying for with the right motivation is not. Just some thoughts. Curious to hear what you think. There's another aspect of this I didn't go into pertaining to the fact that its really when we "give up "that the Lord can accomplish His work through us. A part of the picture that is not to be forgotten, yet not taken to the extreme of, for example, quitting my job and expecting God to rain money on me. Anyways, thats another huge topic. Where do you see the balance being?

Happy Monday!

I spent the weekend on the coast and had a lovely time. Went to an aquarium, ate sea food, took walks on the beach. It was great. Came back yesterday, and am headed back over the mountains again this morning, with the other trainees. We'll be spending a week with a missionary.

Hope you have a happy Monday and a good week. God's grace still amazes me, and I'm so thankful for a new day, a new week, and a living God!
photo caption: confessions of a self portrait


Himself


Once it was the blessing, Now it is the Lord;
Once it was the feeling, Now it is His Word.
Once His gifts I wanted, Now the Giver own;
Once I sought for healing, Now Himself alone.

Once ’twas painful trying, Now ’tis perfect trust;
Once a half salvation, Now the uttermost.
Once ’twas ceaseless holding, Now He holds me fast;
Once ’twas constant drifting, Now my anchor’s cast.

Once ’twas busy planning, Now ’tis trustful prayer;
Once ’twas anxious caring, Now He has the care.
Once ’twas what I wanted, Now what Jesus says;
Once ’twas constant asking, Now ’tis ceaseless praise.

Once it was my working, His it hence shall be;
Once I tried to use Him, Now He uses me.
Once the power I wanted, Now the Mighty One;
Once for self I labored, Now for Him alone.

Once I hoped in Jesus, Now I know He’s mine;
Once my lamps were dying, Now they brightly shine.
Once for death I waited, Now His coming hail;
And my hopes are anchored, Safe within the veil.

Hymn, written by: A.B. Simpson

Quick to Complain

Usually I am. But not today. I am SO blessed as am I everyday though I don't always acknowledge it. These are a few currently meaningful and special facts about my life.

--My car got fixed last week and is still running strong!

-- The sunset over the mountains last night was beautiful.

-- The Lord’s given me a fresh perspective on the book of Psalms

-- I have friends all over the world whom I dearly, dearly love.

--I often recieve timely encouraging letters with scripture and kind words.

-- Care packages from friends mean the world. (THANKS girls!)

--I am never bored.

-- I have hopes for a future that is complete in Christ.

--All my needs are always met.

--Challenges provide new perspective on my life and other people.

“May God not find the whine in us any more, but may He find us full of spiritual pluck and athleticism, ready to face anything He brings.” Oswald Chambers

Picture: January '09- Home with friends




The Face


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When I am faithless, He is faithful.
When mine fail, His plans prevail.
When I fail, His mercy endures.
Without Him, I am nothing.


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